No more Matchbox 20 today .....

Last night our family reached a 'crisis point'. Things were not looking good. A lot of things were said - some necessary. Others totally unnecessary. We yelled, we argued and we cried.

Today we woke up and we still all loved each other. We still wanted to be together. Things don't quite look so bad today. The Matchbox 20 song has been put away until the next time.

The only crisis today was that C2's tooth fell out. It had been sitting rather precariously in his mouth for the last fews days and today it called it quits. He is happy - he has a gap to show off to his grandparents and he still believes in the tooth fairy if he thinks he can get a couple of dollars out of it :o)

Sum up of yesterday:

1) breakfast DONE
2) no weigh DONE
3) exercise NOT DONE - did some walking but not an hours worth. I am not worried. I am constantly on the move during the day anyway so happy to have a few days off.
4) gym NOT DONE - I have to get back into this! I so enjoy it when I get going. My main mission is to go twice next week.
5) track DONE - I am writing my tracking on wee bits of paper but decided as of today I am going to borrow Emily's idea and find a nice notebook and put it all together.
6) water DONE
7) no coke DONE
8) 5 servings NOT DONE - again this is ok. Yesterday I wanted to eat every piece of junkfood within a 10 kilometre radius. I wanted to have fish and chips for lunch yesterday and I actually pointed the car in that direction and went off and did groceries instead. I had a plain cheese roll for lunch.
9) only 3 meals DONE - again happy with this. I actually walked up to the snack box yesterday - stood in front of it with the coins jangling in my pockets, gave it the mental finger! and walked off with nothing. Go Nancy
10) be positive DONE

7/10 - not bad considering the day I had!

.... so I used to work in the office of a timber, posts company. 99% of the staff were males. In my boyfriends job (truck driver) he still keeps in contact with the people I used to work with. I used to get on particularly well with the foreman and while we don't often see each other we communicate between my BF. The foreman asked my partner how I was going the other day and my BF commented that I had lost a lot of weight (see he can be lovely) ... the foreman was like 'oh that is good' and my BF commented 'yeah she has tits now'. Oops! Now I once commented to my BF that I had have tits now (although obviously I always have) and that they have never been that noticeable because I had a huge stomach and spare rolls .. he just thought that piece of info would be good to share around. Another conversation the other day with one of the boys went along something like this:

Boy: 'I have seen Nancy walking around quite a bit lately'
BF: "yeah she is trying to loose weight'
Boy: 'A few people have commented on how good she is looking'
BF: 'yeah she is looking great ............................'

and wait for it!

BF 'she has tits now!'

Oh my god. Hello! I do see these people sometimes. Really I am just going to put them in my head with all the other compliments. It is just how boys talk I suppose and it is nice that other people have started to notice.

Now the important news of the week .... I weighed myself yesterday. I was totally not sure what to expect. I wasn't sure if my 10 point plan was going to make a difference or not. I didn't feel like I had lost weight but I had. My scales are dial ones remember (and very unreliable) but the results helped me to decide to keep on doing my plan for another few weeks. I am actually really enjoying it and not feeling so such a complete failure if I over eat.

So weight as of yesterday 76 1/2.

They say that setting a goal is one of the biggest factors in weight loss. Many people lose weight so they can conceive, many before their wedding day, many because the doctors have told them the risks if they don't lose weight. I have had a goal set to me by someone else with a reward at the end of it. I didn't know whether to mention that here because I didn't want you to think I was losing weight for someone else or to get something that I wanted. I do really want to lose weight and I have for years but this was too good an opportunity to miss. Really the reward, while being fantastic, is not the only reward really in the end. The feeling on a spring day of being in a small t-shirt and slouchy jeans running around playing cricket with your boys makes it all worth it. The feeling of looking in my wardrobe and knowing that every article of clothing in it will fit if I put it on is a reward in itself. Being complimented on how great I look, while feeling uncomfortable with it, is a reward in itself. Being 76 1/2 kilos is good enough for me .... but ... here goes ... drum roll please ...

... if I lose another 1 1/2 kilos in the next 2 months ... in May next year instead of being in New Zealand suffering the cold I will be sitting on the southern coast of Italy in a bikini sipping a cocktail! How is that for a motivator! My sister is getting married there, I am being a bridesmaid and WHEN I get to 75kgs I will have the trip paid for me by my family. If I don't I have been told the weights at the gym might have got me in good enough shape to flap my arms until I make it over there!

Anyway had better go off and do something. So much to do today and sitting here typing on this thing is not going to get me anywhere.

Catch yas later...