You can tell things are bad ....
when I hunt through my CD collection for 'the song'. The song I always play when I am sad and down about my relationship with my BF. I have just done that and I will play the song over and over again until I go to work in 20 minutes and it will be loud. It will try and block out the things going on in my head.
Matchbox 20 - 'when you are gone'.
I don't want to go to work today. I want to lie in bed listening to this song on repeat all day. I want to stay away from everyone and lock myself in my house and wallow. I don't want to have to sound cheerful to people all day because I am not. I am sad. Fuck it all I am sad :o(
And I really don't know what to do about any of this. But I know that I am tired of the constant struggle of having to raise a mixed-up, chewed-up and spat out family. It is too hard and I don't want to have to deal with this all the time. It is all just so complicated, and so messy and so tiring.
I am just tired.
I had better go to work (if I am lucky I will have to time to listen to my song one more time!).
Sorry about my moaning. I should be grateful ... I know I should ... today it is just too hard.
catch yas later
Matchbox 20 - 'when you are gone'.
I don't want to go to work today. I want to lie in bed listening to this song on repeat all day. I want to stay away from everyone and lock myself in my house and wallow. I don't want to have to sound cheerful to people all day because I am not. I am sad. Fuck it all I am sad :o(
And I really don't know what to do about any of this. But I know that I am tired of the constant struggle of having to raise a mixed-up, chewed-up and spat out family. It is too hard and I don't want to have to deal with this all the time. It is all just so complicated, and so messy and so tiring.
I am just tired.
I had better go to work (if I am lucky I will have to time to listen to my song one more time!).
Sorry about my moaning. I should be grateful ... I know I should ... today it is just too hard.
catch yas later
Posted by Nancy Bou at 8:04 AM::
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hey...i just wanted to know...how long does it take you to lose 18kg?I tried to lose 10kg, but its just too hard...can you help?i dont really have the time to work out, my schedule os pretty packed.any suggestions?
Hope you are feeling a little better *hugs*
Don't ever be sorry about being sad. Being sad sucks but you can't help that. Take the time you need to sort things out and vent as much as you need to. I like that song. It does tend to make you sadder though when you are sad to begin with. How about some Monty Python. Can't stand them most of the time but makes me laugh when I am in a snit.
**Big Hugs** Hope things are working out the way you want them to.
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