... it just goes on and on ...

after my wee chip escapade at lunch time (see earlier post) it got worse! That is right ladies and gentlemen .. it just got worse ... a handful or two of spring onion chips before tea, a tea which consisted of crumb chicken pieces and sweet chilli sauce, rounded off nicely with a few big handfuls of corn chips, swallowed down with diet coke ..... what the hell? .. I shouldn't have drunk that today ... it has no points! I apologise what was I thinking .. have a zero point drink at the end of a glutinous day! Sheesh .. can't even binge and overeat right today!

I now feel so full and so sick. But I suppose I have to look on the bright side .. I am being honest, I am still alive and tomorrow is another day. I won't wake up 95kgs again and I won't have to replace all of my fat clothes simply because I ate like Fat Nancy today.

I am still Thinner Nancy .. just a very full, heavy feeling version.

Without making excuses I have had a lot of things on my mind lately and I think today was just one of those 'back off I have had enough' days.
Had a big moan to my boss's boss (my big boss) about my team at work. The team that won't cover my 5-6 pm shifts so I can have two uninterrupted days off (after everyone had 2 weeks + off over Christmas). Told her I was not happy and I thought we were supposed to be a team and that we should all pull together and help each other out. She has also noticed that certain members in my team don't give a fuck (basically) and just look after number one but she is going to work on making sure that everyone is willing to cover for other people.
I have also had passport forms to finish and sort out, lawyers letters to do for BF, emails to CYFS re the other children, family assistance forms for us plus my actual work work and I had just had enough! My ex mother in law has had a go at me today (again) for some stupid reason! And I couldn't even work today cos of my stupid sore foot!

I have a case of the grumps. I got out on the wrong side of the bed.

but ... as my ex father in law says 'every day is a beautiful day even when it is a shitty today' ... so today .. just another beautiful, but shitty, day (he also says 'if it feels good don't do it' .. but that is another entirely different conversation) ..

must go my diet coke is beckoning

xx