God! You guys write a lot! I have been trying and trying to catch up on everyone's blogs and I don't seem to be getting anywhere! So sorry if I have not got around to commenting on everyones ... there is just hours and hours of reading there!
I have decided to start being completely honest about my weight loss in this journey ... I have found sometimes that I haven't been (please forgive me!). I will start declaring all the wee snacks I may eat that I don't count in my points .. my favourite - grabbing a few handfuls of potato chips and counting them as a few points only .. and then going back for more .. or I figure out my points for the day, tally them up, shut my wee book and then have a few scoops of icecream .. or a non-points friendly drink ...
In doing this I am only lying to myself and only hurting myself. Since about November I have not been giving this 100% or maybe not even 75% but then am still so guttered when I don't get good results. There are a number of reasons why I was not putting all my effort into this:
1) as much as I convinced myself that a free ticket to Italy had nothing to do with me losing weight it actually did. I started losing weight for myself but then thought I would go for this goal. I never thought I would make it. I thought I would be flapping my arms to Italy not sitting in a plane with the ticket paid for. As soon as that magical 75 came up on the scales I stopped giving 100%. Maybe I tricked myself that that was my goal (actually originally it was!).
2) I may have lost over 20 kilos now but I have gained something more important ... acceptance (almost of my body) .. while there are still bits I don't like I am (oh yes Margaret I am) a certified mirror whore. I don't mind the look of my body (with clothes) ... sometimes! Ok I still do have fat and frumpy days but I still enjoy walking down town and looking at myself in windows! Really vain eh! I don't feel like one of the fat community anymore and it has made me far too comfortable with the way I am.
3) I have a certain cheering squad in my work place. Everytime they see me they give me compliments .. 'oh you are looking so great', 'how much weight have you lost now?', 'you don't need to loose any more weight', 'you are going to fade away' .. outside of work I still have people who comment on how great I am looking. Don't get me wrong, this if fantastic and I honestly appreciate their support but it makes me feel like I am ok .. that people think I look ok .. so maybe if they are thinking that I have lost enough all ready.
4) I have a state of emergency in my wardrobe. I only have a few items that actually fit me correctly. My secret stash of small clothes is non existent and my pile of large clothes is massive. I am sick of having nothing that fits me but I don't want to buy any more. I want to cling on to my favourite clothes that fit me and never let them go! If I lose I say goodbye to the clothes! (oh how my priorities have changed since losing weight!).
During November and December I dabbled with counting points, exercised if/when I could be bothered. I ate too much over Christmas and New Years. The scales weren't always kind .. I was up around 77kgs momentarily ... I was never under 75kgs. I was quite down about it really. I was worried I wouldn't be able to lose anymore .. I was even worried I would gain all my weight back. The start of January I was back to dabbling but realised it wasn't doing much good.
Something clicked this week. I have been thinking off all the reasons why I want to lose weight again ...
1) to get to my goal (65kgs) A year ago I never dreamed I would lose weight. I thought I was Fat Nancy for ever. I am not. I am Thinner Nancy and I am damn well going to be 'reached her goal weight Nancy' ... I have not come this far to suddenly chuck it all in cos I am too lazy to follow through.
2) to fit into my bridesmaid dress :-P ... bought a dress before Xmas and don't quite fit into it yet. Of course this is going to create huge problems if I can not fit into it on the wedding day. I have also a bikini that I want to property fit into (still a bit tight).
3) my body still needs toning .. to tone I still need to get rid of a few layers of fat.
4) 75 kgs is still at top end of height/weight range. I need to lose a wee bit more to be fully healthy. I also want to have a few kilos to play around with when I am at goal as a buffer.
... there are so many more but I probably boring you all ready.
This week I am giving this 100% .. I am walking my fat butt off, doing my weight/exercises at home and tracking, tracking tracking. I am longer using any excuses. I am just going to do this ....
I started off this year at 75kgs so only 10 kgs more to go!!!!
Better do some work (ooops! yes I am at work and blogging .. again .. still .. whatever!)
Over and out
Thinnner Nancy
(sorry .. tell everyone they write to much .. look at me .. sheesh!)
I have decided to start being completely honest about my weight loss in this journey ... I have found sometimes that I haven't been (please forgive me!). I will start declaring all the wee snacks I may eat that I don't count in my points .. my favourite - grabbing a few handfuls of potato chips and counting them as a few points only .. and then going back for more .. or I figure out my points for the day, tally them up, shut my wee book and then have a few scoops of icecream .. or a non-points friendly drink ...
In doing this I am only lying to myself and only hurting myself. Since about November I have not been giving this 100% or maybe not even 75% but then am still so guttered when I don't get good results. There are a number of reasons why I was not putting all my effort into this:
1) as much as I convinced myself that a free ticket to Italy had nothing to do with me losing weight it actually did. I started losing weight for myself but then thought I would go for this goal. I never thought I would make it. I thought I would be flapping my arms to Italy not sitting in a plane with the ticket paid for. As soon as that magical 75 came up on the scales I stopped giving 100%. Maybe I tricked myself that that was my goal (actually originally it was!).
2) I may have lost over 20 kilos now but I have gained something more important ... acceptance (almost of my body) .. while there are still bits I don't like I am (oh yes Margaret I am) a certified mirror whore. I don't mind the look of my body (with clothes) ... sometimes! Ok I still do have fat and frumpy days but I still enjoy walking down town and looking at myself in windows! Really vain eh! I don't feel like one of the fat community anymore and it has made me far too comfortable with the way I am.
3) I have a certain cheering squad in my work place. Everytime they see me they give me compliments .. 'oh you are looking so great', 'how much weight have you lost now?', 'you don't need to loose any more weight', 'you are going to fade away' .. outside of work I still have people who comment on how great I am looking. Don't get me wrong, this if fantastic and I honestly appreciate their support but it makes me feel like I am ok .. that people think I look ok .. so maybe if they are thinking that I have lost enough all ready.
4) I have a state of emergency in my wardrobe. I only have a few items that actually fit me correctly. My secret stash of small clothes is non existent and my pile of large clothes is massive. I am sick of having nothing that fits me but I don't want to buy any more. I want to cling on to my favourite clothes that fit me and never let them go! If I lose I say goodbye to the clothes! (oh how my priorities have changed since losing weight!).
During November and December I dabbled with counting points, exercised if/when I could be bothered. I ate too much over Christmas and New Years. The scales weren't always kind .. I was up around 77kgs momentarily ... I was never under 75kgs. I was quite down about it really. I was worried I wouldn't be able to lose anymore .. I was even worried I would gain all my weight back. The start of January I was back to dabbling but realised it wasn't doing much good.
Something clicked this week. I have been thinking off all the reasons why I want to lose weight again ...
1) to get to my goal (65kgs) A year ago I never dreamed I would lose weight. I thought I was Fat Nancy for ever. I am not. I am Thinner Nancy and I am damn well going to be 'reached her goal weight Nancy' ... I have not come this far to suddenly chuck it all in cos I am too lazy to follow through.
2) to fit into my bridesmaid dress :-P ... bought a dress before Xmas and don't quite fit into it yet. Of course this is going to create huge problems if I can not fit into it on the wedding day. I have also a bikini that I want to property fit into (still a bit tight).
3) my body still needs toning .. to tone I still need to get rid of a few layers of fat.
4) 75 kgs is still at top end of height/weight range. I need to lose a wee bit more to be fully healthy. I also want to have a few kilos to play around with when I am at goal as a buffer.
... there are so many more but I probably boring you all ready.
This week I am giving this 100% .. I am walking my fat butt off, doing my weight/exercises at home and tracking, tracking tracking. I am longer using any excuses. I am just going to do this ....
I started off this year at 75kgs so only 10 kgs more to go!!!!
Better do some work (ooops! yes I am at work and blogging .. again .. still .. whatever!)
Over and out
Thinnner Nancy
(sorry .. tell everyone they write to much .. look at me .. sheesh!)
Posted by Nancy Bou at 11:45 AM::
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7 Comments:
Good luck with your goals his week - I too got to a certain weight and got comfy...the problem is that I gained and need to get back!!!
I also am finding some clothes tight - but refuse to buy anything larger...lol
Great post Nancy. It's not easy being honest with yourself, but I'm guilty of doing pretty much the same thing. I think most of us have. But you've worked out a plan and it will work, because remember, you aren't the same Nancy you were last year. You're better. Take care and have a better week.
Oh Nancy,we all do it (at least I know I do). Dont be too hard on yourself. You have put on your determination hat again and you are off and running. Have a great week.
:o)
YOU GO GIRL...YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
you're an inspiration...you're ready to kick butt and achieve everything you want too...and if you fall into a lull imagine walking down the isle in nothing but ya undies hehehehe
thats whats working for me...as i dont fit my bridesmaid outfit yet either.
Hmm, I've got the blogging at work habit, too...
Good on you for getting this down in writing.
whoohoo, great goals there & u will get there soon with that 100% attitude! welcome back :)
Wow. That was a very honest, very real post. And I have had some of the same dishonest dealings with myself. Both you and I have 10kgs to go. 10kgs till we are even more sensational that we already are. Can you handle it? I have decided (today) that I can handle it. We are going to have to handle it because we are going to get there.
Now if we can just work out a way that we can blog from home during work time - and have them pay for it - then we will be set LOL
Hope you have a fantastic week :D
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