Numbers ......
Amazing. Two posts in one day. Wanted to have this one in a seperate entry because this is a big thing for me. I tried to post this on the day that it happened but didn't have time.
February 25nd 2006 .. my first birthday! One year since I started losing weight for real!
I have no idea why this time this has worked with so many other times I have failed. Maybe it is like learning to walk - we try once and fall over, try again and fall over but then one time it just clicks and we starting taking steps. Ok we fall over again every now and then but we aren't scared to pick ourselves up and take another step. I still haven't mastered this whole thing yet. I still fall over on a regular basis but I have still covered quite a distance.
One year ago I was 95 kgs and more (never had an official start weight). My BMI was 30+. My clothes were huge, I was huge and I was unhappy.
In one year I have lost 22.4 kgs (weighed in at 72.6 on 22nd). That is 44.8 blocks of butter! My BMI is now 23. But these are just numbers. My achievements are obvious more in the things I do and the way that I feel.
My brain has taken a long time to catch up with my body. I now no longer see myself as fat. Ok my thighs are too big, my arms are still too flabby, I am never going to be a big fan of my own arse! But I am ok with myself, I am accepting of myself (generally). My BF no longer has to go shopping with me .. we used to play this wee game when I went shopping for clothes, even up until a couple of months ago - I would like something and want to try it on and would choose an XL top or a size 20 trousers. BF would go along behind me and swap them for a smaller size. I would be suprised when I tried them on and they fitted me. BF would look smug, give me a smile and the thumbs up. I no longer need to take BF with me. I can now go shopping all by myself (although I still have that sense of suprise when I try something on smaller and it fits me).
Looking back I feel so sad that I wasted a lot of my life being overweight. I am still relatively young (under 30) but have missed out on doing so many things because I was conscious of my size. I have lived countless summers living in huge jeans and t-shirts paranoid that I couldn't wear shorts because I would just look wrong. My body was not only fat but white. I never let the sun and my body meet. Now picture this ...."Fat Nancy" lying on a bean bag in the BBQ area, cold cold beer in one hand, book in the other. The sound of a lawnmower next door, a jet ski on the river. Sun beaming down, gentle breeze off the sea. Nancy tanning herself in board shorts and a bikini top .......... that is right - board shorts and bikini top! This is what I am talking about!
No numbers can ever express the feeling of the sun on your body on a beautiful summers day.
No numbers can ever express the feeling of joy of walking into a regular clothing shop and not having to buy the largest size there!
No numbers can ever express the sense of pride of knowing that I did this. Goddamed I have actually done this. I may not be at my goal quite yet but I can guarantee you two things: (1) I am bloody well going to do it and (2) when I reach my goal it is still not going to be just about the numbers.
Now just cos I can here is a few of photos of me ...
Remember these .....???
What about these!?
February 25nd 2006 .. my first birthday! One year since I started losing weight for real!
I have no idea why this time this has worked with so many other times I have failed. Maybe it is like learning to walk - we try once and fall over, try again and fall over but then one time it just clicks and we starting taking steps. Ok we fall over again every now and then but we aren't scared to pick ourselves up and take another step. I still haven't mastered this whole thing yet. I still fall over on a regular basis but I have still covered quite a distance.
One year ago I was 95 kgs and more (never had an official start weight). My BMI was 30+. My clothes were huge, I was huge and I was unhappy.
In one year I have lost 22.4 kgs (weighed in at 72.6 on 22nd). That is 44.8 blocks of butter! My BMI is now 23. But these are just numbers. My achievements are obvious more in the things I do and the way that I feel.
My brain has taken a long time to catch up with my body. I now no longer see myself as fat. Ok my thighs are too big, my arms are still too flabby, I am never going to be a big fan of my own arse! But I am ok with myself, I am accepting of myself (generally). My BF no longer has to go shopping with me .. we used to play this wee game when I went shopping for clothes, even up until a couple of months ago - I would like something and want to try it on and would choose an XL top or a size 20 trousers. BF would go along behind me and swap them for a smaller size. I would be suprised when I tried them on and they fitted me. BF would look smug, give me a smile and the thumbs up. I no longer need to take BF with me. I can now go shopping all by myself (although I still have that sense of suprise when I try something on smaller and it fits me).
Looking back I feel so sad that I wasted a lot of my life being overweight. I am still relatively young (under 30) but have missed out on doing so many things because I was conscious of my size. I have lived countless summers living in huge jeans and t-shirts paranoid that I couldn't wear shorts because I would just look wrong. My body was not only fat but white. I never let the sun and my body meet. Now picture this ...."Fat Nancy" lying on a bean bag in the BBQ area, cold cold beer in one hand, book in the other. The sound of a lawnmower next door, a jet ski on the river. Sun beaming down, gentle breeze off the sea. Nancy tanning herself in board shorts and a bikini top .......... that is right - board shorts and bikini top! This is what I am talking about!
No numbers can ever express the feeling of the sun on your body on a beautiful summers day.
No numbers can ever express the feeling of joy of walking into a regular clothing shop and not having to buy the largest size there!
No numbers can ever express the sense of pride of knowing that I did this. Goddamed I have actually done this. I may not be at my goal quite yet but I can guarantee you two things: (1) I am bloody well going to do it and (2) when I reach my goal it is still not going to be just about the numbers.
Now just cos I can here is a few of photos of me ...
Remember these .....???
What about these!?
Just a wee difference do you think?
Posted by Nancy Bou at 2:54 PM::
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17 Comments:
WOW - thanks for the after/during photos - what a difference !!! You must be so proud of yourself.
Keep up the good work and you will definitely get to the number you want to be at.
Have a great week and take care.
Me
WOW, what a success story!! You are looking fantastic girl :-)
Have to tell you I could copy this post and put it on my blog..I so understand what you have said. And the similarities. Started at similar weights , lost similar amounts and for the similar amount of time. Have the same feelings of regret at doing it so late but the same feeling of success that I am doing it now. Have agreat week. You are so right that while we may have a few bumpy patches we pick ourselves up and get on with it. I needed that reminder.
You look amazing - what flabby arms??? You have done such an incredible thing in this last year, and perhaps the difference this time is being accountable. You are older, wiser, have different wants and needs - all these things add up to the difference that makes it a success.
And you ARE a success. Each and every day.
Did I tell you that you look sensational? - well you do!!
Hope you have a lovely day tomorrow and feel better soon :D
You look wonderful! Congratulations!!!
A "wee" differenec - geez girl, you look great!! How small is your waist!! Y
ou look great, well done on your achievements in the last year, and also for recognising that this is about so much more than the numbers.
Nancy you look amazing. Dont worry about the past just enjoy the present and look forward to the future. Go get em.
:o)
Nancy you look amazing. Dont worry about the past just enjoy the present and look forward to the future. Go get em.
:o)
You look great honey, well done. You are changing yourself from the outside in and you're doing such a great job.
Bri
Your photos are amazing, you have done so well. You are a very strong and determined person and I have every faith that you will get to your goal weight. You look fantastic!
Bri
Popped in to say hello and had to have a good look at the photos again. WOW again.
You are looking good.
Hope you are well at the moment. Have a great week Nancy :D
Hello Nancy. Hope you are well and happy.
omg YOU STUNNER!!!
Hope you're doing okay.
Bri
Hi Nancy. Hope you are planning to have a great weekend. Missing your posts. :)
Happy Easter gorgeous :D
check you out you little hottie you!!! great post, gotta make you feel good about yourself aye??!!
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