*smiles shyly* ....

Hi

mmm.... :-)

Well ... it has been a while eh ....

*shrugs*

suppose this means I am back into this crazy wee world of blogging. Can't be a bad thing really! This is the place I used to feel so comfortable, so not alone, so supported ... just has been a while since I was gone I suppose.

And now I am not sure what to say.

I want you to know though that I haven't disappeared because I have gained weight or completely fell off the wagon. Actually I have sorta fallen off the diet wagon but have been very very lucky I have not gained weight.

I haven't exercised in so long it is not funny (to be totally honest). I bought an Ipod when I was overseas with the excuse I would use it while walking in the morning but I have physically not exercised in months. My body though is craving exercise. I have had cravings for the gym ... cravings for swimming ... cravings for walking (but seriously, honestly on a good morning we are lucky to get to 0 degrees .. too cold!).

I have been eating well .. kinda. If I said I ate a whole pizza and a McChicken combo in one evening would it disgust people? If I said that I was in Rome and I wanted the boys to experience Italian McD's and pizza would it make a difference? Would I convince myself it was ok?

Probably not.

If I said that winter is not a good season to try and lose weight would I convince you guys? You are the ones getting out there and doing it and I am coming up with excuses ... so probably not.

But ....

I have reached a sorta calm point in my life. I don't hate the way I look (although I am not totally pleased either). I have a new addiction .. shopping for clothes. I want myself to look 'reasonable'. I never used to wear skirts etc and now I do .. (in the middle of winter)..

I am happy with myself ... I feel ok .. but as I said earlier I crave exercise. I want to get back on track. I want to finish this damn thing.

And I am going to. So many of you have finished .. so many of you are going to finish ... and so many of you haven't even started so you don't know yet that you will finish.

We are all going to end up a fantastic looking bunch of people!

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So Italy talk ahead ....

Condensed version

I went. I saw. I conquered my fear of flying (and of the dentist!). I loved it. Am going back again.

Will update on that next time .. plus include some photos :-)

.... but right now I am going to bed ...



Wanna sneak peak? (told u she looked beautiful)